Happy Holidays!

I have been absent- again, mostly because I have been anxious about what will happen with my job. We have been told to stay home Monday, January 5th to await our fate. The good news is that if I do get laid off I will get paid until January, then my severance will kick in which will take me through April. Two bonuses owed will by me another month which means that I will need to find a new job by June 1st which I feel has a good chance even in this economy. It may not be my dream job, but it will have to pay the bills. But hopefully it won't come to that.

My dad is already complaining about the cost of the wedding and we haven't even spent a dime! When my mom told him she had booked the country club he suggested another venue. I don't want that other venue. I feel like I am already compromising by having the wedding where they live, not me. And I plan to be very practical with the guest list, flowers, etc. No bridezilla here. I want to get married at the club, have an open bar, and a band. Those are my only requirements. My mom can choose the rest. Even the dresses I have looked at are at the less expensive end of the spectrum- no $2000 dress for me. Sigh... its gonna be a long year.

Happy Holidays to all!

Bleak

I haven't posted in a while because I have had some bad news. After the joy of getting engaged I found out that my company is having layoffs is my area. They are cutting my division by 2/3 and I may very well be unemployed come January 5th. It is very unsettling and has made it very difficult to think about my future. I do have a wedding date- November 14th, 2009 so I have something to look forward to, but it honestly is not on my mind too much. I did have some drama already- I decided I wanted only my sis in laws as attendants and when I told one friend she got mad and I think basically ended our friendship. She and my fiance don't get along but that isn't what happened. I am not having one of my closest friends of over 20 yrs either and she seem to understand. I just can't worry about that now- it is my wedding and I think it is my right to have as big or small a wedding party as I want.

So for now, I await my fate.