Wedding Bells

I am finally posting after 7 months. I am getting married next week! I feel pretty calm given everything that still needs to be done. I have a new job so I think that has had my focus for a few months, but for the next 7 days I am sure my mind will be on next weekend.

post more later...

My it has been awhile

Hello there. I wish I was not posting for a good reason but mainly it was because I had nothing exciting to say and work has been crazy. Today I decided to just catch up with whats been going on. Things are well- I am getting a hang of the work thing and while I work pretty hard, the learning curve is less steep now. I still wait for the other shoe to drop and to get laid off, but I will cross that bridge when I get to it.

The wedding planning is , well, going. I have a dress and I am going t show it to my aunt today. I hope I love it now as much as I did when I dropped the $1200 on it in February. I am going to buy a veil today. Still need to choose and band which I have been working on, but my main task right now is getting addresses in a spreadsheet so that the save the date cards can go out. I have beeen a procrastinator about that.

And in a nutshell, that is about it. My df and I still are working through some things but it is getting better and I am still so happy to be getting married to him.

I won't take so long to post next time... promise!

MIA

I know... I have not updated in a long time. I am pretty sure, in fact, my 4 readers have all gone away. But I need to do this for my own sanity.

I have been so busy learning my new job. While I have not changed companies I have been going through training and riding with other sales reps and it has just been a very full schedule. I have a week of studying, another week out in the field then I am out of town for 2 weeks. Before I go my fiance will be out of town for 5 days so we will be away from each other most of February.

In non-work news, my mom is coming into town at the end of February to help me shop for wedding dresses. I am excited to find one that both of us love. I still love looking down at my finger or running into people I haven't seen in a while to tell them I am engaged. I figure I am only going to do this once so am making the most of it and enjoy it. It is still 9+ months away but we only have the venue reserved so there is still a lot to do over the coming months and I know they will fly by. It will be good times.

Update!

I still have a job. Not the one I was doing, but still specialty. I will be selling different products to institutions instead of offices so this will actually make me more marketable for the next round of layoffs which I feel are eminent.

Oh what a feeling

I should be working. But I am not. Instead, I am sitting at home waiting for a phone call. Either from my manager, if she makes it through the cut, or someone else. At that time I will find out if I stay in my current position, get moved to another area, or laid off. Obviously option a is the ideal but right now b doesn't look to bad. I just want to know.

Happy New Year... maybe

I hope everyone had a great holiday season. For me, it was filled with family, friends and now a little anxiety. On Monday or Tuesday I will know my fate at work. And whatever it is, I just have to remind myself that I will land on my feet. I may not get my dream job and may even have to take a pay cut, but I will be gainfully employed before too long. Of course, all this worrying may be for nothing and I may stay at my company in some capacity... I just have to see.

My family loved the ring and I asked my nieces and nephews to be in the wedding. It was funy- the youngest (3 and 5) were gung ho while the oldest (7 and 9) acted a bit cautious. Kids... they are hard to figure out.

My fiance is out of town for work and will hopefully be home around dinnertime tomorrow. He left early on New Years day (like 5:30 am) so we were in bed very very early the night before. I miss him and want him to come home.

Once I know something I will let you all know but in the meantime think positive thoughts for me please.

Happy Holidays!

I have been absent- again, mostly because I have been anxious about what will happen with my job. We have been told to stay home Monday, January 5th to await our fate. The good news is that if I do get laid off I will get paid until January, then my severance will kick in which will take me through April. Two bonuses owed will by me another month which means that I will need to find a new job by June 1st which I feel has a good chance even in this economy. It may not be my dream job, but it will have to pay the bills. But hopefully it won't come to that.

My dad is already complaining about the cost of the wedding and we haven't even spent a dime! When my mom told him she had booked the country club he suggested another venue. I don't want that other venue. I feel like I am already compromising by having the wedding where they live, not me. And I plan to be very practical with the guest list, flowers, etc. No bridezilla here. I want to get married at the club, have an open bar, and a band. Those are my only requirements. My mom can choose the rest. Even the dresses I have looked at are at the less expensive end of the spectrum- no $2000 dress for me. Sigh... its gonna be a long year.

Happy Holidays to all!

Bleak

I haven't posted in a while because I have had some bad news. After the joy of getting engaged I found out that my company is having layoffs is my area. They are cutting my division by 2/3 and I may very well be unemployed come January 5th. It is very unsettling and has made it very difficult to think about my future. I do have a wedding date- November 14th, 2009 so I have something to look forward to, but it honestly is not on my mind too much. I did have some drama already- I decided I wanted only my sis in laws as attendants and when I told one friend she got mad and I think basically ended our friendship. She and my fiance don't get along but that isn't what happened. I am not having one of my closest friends of over 20 yrs either and she seem to understand. I just can't worry about that now- it is my wedding and I think it is my right to have as big or small a wedding party as I want.

So for now, I await my fate.

Engaged!

It's official- I now have a fiance. I knew he wouldn't be able to keep the ring to himself for too long and sure enough, he proposed last night! We then went to a great restaurant with my brother and some of his friends (they were in town for work) and he bought champagne for everyone to toast us. It was wonderful. Yesterday was truly amazing.

new laptop

I got a new laptop today. My old one still works, but the battery is totally dead and the I am having to borrow a power cord from my work laptop because the one for my personal one (the second one by the way) broke. My laptop is a Toshiba and to replace those 2 things will cost close to $200. We may sell this one as is or keep it as a spare- not sure yet.

So, I bought a new gateway that is much faster with more memory and a better screen for $599. Now bf and I are going through the painful process of getting rid of Vista and putting XP back on it. Thank goodness he is an IT consultant.

It is getting closer to when we will be getting engaged. I don't know exactly when, and the ring is not ready yet, but bf has said he can't wait until I have a sparkler on my hand. I think he is very proud of the design he chose and he knows I will love it. I can't wait!

Fall as we know it here on the Texas gulf coast has finally arrived. It will get into the high 30's tonight but the days will be gorgeous low 70's all week. I love this time of year.

Hope everyone has a great week- it will be a busy one for me, but if anything exciting happens I will be sure to post.

So excited!

So today was a very big day. Bf and I went to the jeweler where he is getting my engagement ring made to look at the wax version. It is going to be the most gorgeous ring. We also are having a simple band made for the Jewish ceremony and a small band of diamonds made as well. This way they will all match and look perfect together. And while I was not planning on the diamond band we decided to do it since we are using 18k white gold instead of platinum.

It will be ready in 7-10 days and then of course he will hide it from me and I will just have to wait until he is ready to ask me. I know it will be before the end of the year. I am just so excited. Things are great and I am such a lucky girl!

Happy Monday. Is it just me or is everyone having a hard time adjusting to the time change? I am just very tired today, but that could also be because we have a new cat that tends to want to play when I have just reached a deep sleep.

I went and visited my family for Halloween and had a lot of fun. I left bf here to catch up on work and I think he got a lot accomplished but still has a lot more to do. One of these days he will get back to where he was before the hurricane hit and his computer crashed.

I sat next to a girl on the plane that had just gotten engaged. It was very exciting to hear her talk about it and made me excited for the day when I too get proposed to. I know it won't be far off, but it is still a waiting game.

And now I am off to watch Gossip Girl- one of my many guilty pleasures.

So busy

I feel like I haven't posted in forever. It's been a busy time for work and my mom was in town over the weekend as well. We had a good time, but I was emotional after she left and cried to my bf. I know time of month exaggerated it, but sometimes the fact that I live far away and the rest of my family lives within 5 miles of each other makes me sad. I feel like I miss out on a lot of things, especially with airfare being so expensive now. I am going there next weekend to see the kiddos all dressed up for Halloween so that will be fun.

I saw my psychologist yesterday. It was a good session. I thought everything was going pretty smoothly in my life, and it is for the most part, but she made me realize that all the little things that are going on are manageable by themselves but put together they can be a little overwhelming. And it's ok that I get a little anxious as long as I have ways to cope and calm myself down. And I do. I have words and thoughts that I can say to myself to make myself realize the sky is not falling and even something really challenging came along I will be ok.

I am ready for the holidays to get here. This is the first time that I really have someone special to share them with and I can't wait. I have always been like the 7th wheel at family events and alone at the holiday parties and to have him, who I have jokingly called my man candy (only to him), will make me so happy. Of course a shiny sparkly ring on my left hand would be icing on the cake.

Hump Day

I was just getting ready to post when my bf came in the room and asked me to put my computer down for a few minutes. I thought we were going to cuddle but apparently he had other ideas. And I was all dressed for the gym and am now sweaty with weak legs. Oh well, sex is better than the elliptical any day.

Passing

My grandfather passed away yesterday. This is my mom's dad and while we knew this was coming, it still is upsetting. His quality of life had declined dramatically so I do believe it is for the best, but I think about the good times and it makes me sad.

I will be flying to California to meet my mom there for the funeral. She told me I didn't have to go but I it did not feel right. I want to be there to support her.

I have one grandparent left, my dad's mom who is about to turn 94. I don't want to even think about her dying one day... that will be devastating.

Two Thumbs Up

BF and I had friends over for dinner last night- a single girl and a couple. BF and the single girl had met, but the couple an bf had not. There was not any reason for this, it just had not happened yet. Well, it turned out really great; good food and good conversation.

Across the board we both like each others friends and families. I think one of his friends is sort of boring but he knows that. The thing is, he hates one of my good friends and because of this our friendship has suffered. They were supposed to do business together and it did not work out and now I am caught in the middle. I have learned my lesson to not mix friends and business (although he is working for my parents), but I hate the fact that I can't see her with him, or even that when I want to see her I get snide remarks from him.

What do you do in this situation, when you know you will never be able to socialize as couples?

Straightening up

My cleaning lady is coming tomorrow. She has only come once before and is awesome. We have her every other week, but the hurricane and lack of power for 3 Saturdays set us back so now the house is a mess again.

So now I will do what many women I know do: I will clean in preparation for her arrival. It seems silly in a way because I am paying her to do it, but there is just something about having a near stranger inspect your house and find it too messy. Or maybe it is just that if I don't pre-clean she will never make a dent in it.

I will devote a few hours today to throwing away papers, loading the dishwasher, putting books and various other items where they belong, and doing laundry. The laundry gets done every weekend anyway so I guess I can't count that as anything extra.

And oh I just can't wait until tomorrow evening when I have a nice clean home... at least for 72 hours or so.

All is well

For the first time in over two weeks I am sitting in bed typing on my laptop. That's right, late this afternoon the power finally came back on. In anticipation, since my neighbors across the street got theirs 2 hours earlier, I scrubbed the bare refrigerator and freezer. It was cathartic in a way and it has n0t been this clean in a long time. Now it is stocked with cold beverages and nothing else and the freezer is bare save for 2 bags of ice. Slowly but surely we will replenish our variety of condiments, fruits, vegetables and various frozen items. We lost a few hundred dollars worth of fish so I never want to stock either as fully as before.

I have run the dishwasher and have done 4 loads of laundry. I changed the sheets on the bed and tidied up the bedroom. After all this I took a nice warm shower, which I have been able to do since we have a gas water heater, but now I get to do something I have not done in a week.... blow dry my hair. It really is the little things that sometimes mean the most.

And finally, for my Jewish readers, have a very Happy New Year. I, for one, am very grateful that my synagogue has power, my bf will be attending services with me, and hurricane season is almost over. L'Shana Tova!

Still in the dark

It was 2 weeks ago today that Hurricane Ike wreaked havoc on my city. And since midnight on that Friday I have been without electricity. At least 3 times the power company has told us we will be getting it back, but still it is dark. In 3 hours, if it is still not back on, another deadline will be missed. I know they are doing their best, but areas far harder hit then us have had power for a long time now.

I also have at leas 40 mosquito bites from when we spent all day Tuesday clearing the branches and limbs from the yard.

On the bright side the weather has gotten much cooler so we have pleasant nights to sleep with the windows open. Mind you, we only have 4 with screens on them so we will have to live with that.

I am cranky, but also very aware that so many others lost much more than power and for that I am remorseful for my bitching. We just want to get back to normal.

May this weekend be fabulous for everyone and well lit for me.

Almost home

I have been in Austin for over a week, but we are going home tomorrow. We are still without power, but friends have gotten theirs back and we can stay with them. On Wednesday I will get back to work and assess the state of my business. Since many of my customers were in the hardest hit areas it may be weeks before they return to normality.

I really miss working and my every day routine. Other than training I have never been gone from home this long. I also have never missed this much work with the exception of once when I had severe eye infections for 3 weeks. Even then though I was at my own house sleeping in my own bed.

If only I could click my heels and be back...